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Becoming (Intro)
01:54
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Fiction seeps into reality, and I become.
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2. |
Wake Me
03:10
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I’ve been lying my ass off
I was put here to stir up storms
It gives me something to feed off
Instead of bouncing off the walls
I’m not what you think, I’ve always been this crazy
I’ve just run out of medication
I scratch at my skin, I’ve gotta let myself out
Before I lose it and blow again
Will I ever wakeup?
Step inside my mind, I’ve gone crazy
I’m trapped inside of this daze and I wanna break out
Will someone turn on the light and save me?
Will I ever wakeup?
I don’t feel alive, it don’t faze me
I’m trapped inside of this daze and I wanna break out
Will someone turn on the light and wake me?
I’ve been lying my ass off
Said what I said and I own it
I’m either drunk or I've lost it
I don’t fear death long for it
How I love the way you’ve always looked at me
Jaw on the floor while you clench your fist
It’s no wonder why I’ve always felt so distant
I just learnt that I don't even exist
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3. |
Spiritual Suicide
02:36
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I grit my teeth, I’m always under attack
How long’s this knife been stuck in my back?
I collapse
When they take me I'll be dragging you with me
Hold me back
Spiritual suicide
Won’t you be mine?
A guilty conscience wears away at the soul
Grew up corrupt and now it shakes in my bones
No control
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Can’t admit you’re wrong
You’re wrong, you’re wrong
Part of me wants to see you dead, so
Run
You better run
No matter what you do, I’ll find you
"Hahaha, and I thought my jokes were bad" (Sample)
Run
You better run
So run
Shut your fuckin legs
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5. |
Catfight
03:33
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I can’t believe
what I’ve become
I’ve ruined lives
I’ve hands of blood
To turn the page
Or close the book
Everybody’s always falling for it
You crack your whip while you talk your shit
It dragged me down
And now I’m hooked
Everybody’s always falling for it
Your time is up and you lose your grip
You’re Schizophrenic any second you’ll flip
I realised
Those screams I heard
They were my own
But twisted words
Take me
“What we’re thinking of as aliens, they’re inter-dimensional beings…” (Sample)
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I sit back disconnected, and have another to drink
’til vodka tastes like it’s water
I won’t stop disregarding, you’ll have to drag me to hell
Where legends continue living
This war of minds will never be forgotten
I can feel it through the stone
A fucking execution
This is sure to be it, so let go
You tied me down
You kept me away
You clipped my wings
I’m not gonna stay
Blood pouring from my eyes
But I’ll see you in time
Through broken eyes
(This is surely it, so just let go)
Send shivers down my spine
I see the world ignite
Through broken eyes
(This is surely it, so just let go)
Come on, string me up then, I swear to god if I find you
I will rip you apart, bitch
This cycle keeps repeating, an endless waging of wars
You can’t admit that you’re wrong
On this world alone
Atop the masses that are weaker
As I let go of rage building and building
Staring at those who welcome defeat
This is surely it, so let go
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8. |
Veins
03:56
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Trip on the wire open fire, retake
Keep holding on when I should be pushing away
The scars are fading but the feeling remains
You feed the rage that’s always scraping through my veins
Making threat after threat
Thinking I should be dead
I bring the blood, turn it red
Sink it in ’til I forget
Threat after threat, again and again
But I’m not ignoring everything that you’ve said
You’re under my skin, I’m raging within
And I still remember what you put in my head
I am the voice you hear in the back of your head
I’m the lies, the pain, the hate that you fear
I am the voice you hear in the back of your head
I’m the lies, the pain, the hate that you fear
Open your eyes to find that you don’t like what you see
I remind you of what could’ve been
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9. |
Real Eyes
03:36
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Stuck in this hole, it’s a part of me, never seen
I’ve been bad but never to this degree
All that you want is apologies, out of me
I don’t care, it’s over, you’re killing me
You don't know me the way that you think you do
I lost my mind, but I will always be here for you
No matter how much that it still hurts me
I could never let you go
And even if I, I still had everything
Without you I am so alone
Adding insult to my injuries, cutting me
Thoughts like knives make telepathic lobotomies
All that I need is your sympathy, I’ll leave the key
One last time, so thanks for the memories
I've got a mouth like a gun, no control
Real eyes realise
Real eyes realise real lies
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Looking back brings the worst out in me
How I wish I could sleep
I don’t want to remember a thing
I’ve been out here for weeks
Try to catch the words as they left my mouth
Came into my brain, shouldn’t let them out
Still I wanna know, can you hear me now?
Stretched so thin
Every night you’re calling in
That’s why your head spins
Thoughts of lies breaking in
I’ve become
Everything you said I was
So be calm
You’re all I every think about
Give it up, you’ve got nothing on me
Crawling round on your knees
Heard you said you were coming for me
Well, that’s the word on the street
I’ve become everything you said I was
I, I’ve become
So be calm
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Ctrl Freak Auckland, New Zealand
Originating from Auckland, New Zealand, Ctrl Freak is a self-produced project by Richie
Bennett.
The music shifts between a contemporary-metal dense wall of sound, raw aggression and manic energy, to electronica and ambient soundscapes.
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